Autumn

Let’s just take a moment to appreciate how awesome autumn is. Like seriously, how can a season be so perfect….well at least, how can a season be so perfect for me?

For starters, I have a small obsession with anything copper. Pfft, small? That’s a lie, my copper obsession is borderline, well, borderline obsessive! Okay, that made no sense, moving on! What was I trying to say? Oh right! Copper, we were talking about copper – I love copper and in autumn, copper is trendy! Copper decor, copper eye shadows, copper jewelry…just copper in general! [EDIT- Reading back through this I’m beginning to wonder how on earth it was possible to fit the word ‘copper’ in so much?] And along with copper, colors like burgundy become fashionable as well as one of my favorite lip colors, berry!

Talking of things I love that become trendy, let’s just take a moment to mention skinny jeans! I don’t wear joggers and sweatpants but that’s more because I don’t own any and don’t see a reason to buy them when I could just get more leggings or skinny jeans! And along with that trend comes a matching trend of sweatshirts and boots! This combination is honestly my go-to and I would wear it all year round if I could! The fact that it suddenly becomes fashionable only adds to my excitement for autumn!
Autumn practically is a canvas of photography opportunities. Photography -That basically sums up my life in autumn! Actually, that sums up my life all year round…oops. What? I love photography okay! And the fact I’m taking it as a subject means that I just have another excuse to take more photos! 
Whether it be falling leaves or gorgeous sunsets, I’m there and ready with my camera firmly held in my hands. Plus I love an impromptu photo shoot and just the other week  [EDIT – *Cough* just the other month *cough*] I met up with some friends for a really cute photo-shoot in aid of my photography course work (but also for an excuse to meet up).

Ah autumn, I love you! Seriously! This season is the best!! Make sure to comment below your opinion of autumn! Whether you love it or hate it, let me know!
{___} My LifeOnline {21/11/16}

We Broke Up…

Well then, here’s a slightly sad post….the title says it all, you know what’s happened. 
I wasn’t going to say anything about what’s happening in my ‘real’ life but then I remembered that I don’t have to impress anyone on here. This blog was made so I could anonymously rant and tell you guys everything, even if you don’t know who I am.
 Just before I start this post I’ll give you a few details – He was once one of my best friends, I broke up with him, we’re not on brilliant terms right now. In some ways, it’s my fault….I said some things I regret but I’m glad they’re in the open. He, however, said many, many horrible things and because of that I’m not quite ready to forgive him, he’s not being a particularly nice person as of right now but that’s just life.

So here it is, plain and simple, we broke up – We dated for barely a month but in so little time so much happened. He was one of my best friends and somehow we ended up together. Our relationship was pretty awful to be honest, a lot of upsetting things happened and I doubt he really cared. In fact, both me and one of my best friends are convinced he likes one of our other best friends…brilliant.
The first best friend I mentioned, she’s the one who helped me break up with him even though my now ex-boyfriend was her best friend, now ex-best friend after they had a huge fight. I’m not going to go into too much detail on why I broke up with him because it would take too long, however, for one there was no trust in our relationship but more importantly I didn’t see myself with him or particularly want to be with him which if anything is a pretty solid reason.

It was all going to be fine -I broke up with him, yes, but he was okay about it – “you’re a really amazing person” he said “I want you to be part of my life, we’ll do whatever makes you happy”. I believed that would happen and for once, I truly trusted he believed that too. And you know what, it would have been fine, genuinely fine, if everyone else had stayed out of it. But no, once everyone else got involved it became messy – now I can’t even look him in the eye, he’s an idiot. 
The tension got ridiculous, we all said things we regret. So I confronted him, said that everything going on was stupid and we should just be civil. He agreed. Of course, him and my best friend still hate each other so it was never going to go back to how it was before. But we’re civil. Granted, we don’t talk to each other but we can put up with each other seeing as we share a lot of friends. Instead of barging past me, he’ll hold open a door….instead of turning away stubbornly, I’ll politely thank him.

It’s not perfect, in many ways I wish I’d never dated him – that we’d just stayed best friends – because then none of this would have happened. Hopefully with time things will slowly sink back into place, it’s never going to be the same but maybe one day we’ll be able to joke around and talk again….just not yet.
 The fact is, he isn’t the nice guy I thought. All of this has made him show a side of himself I’ve never seen and that’s quite a scary thought. The idea that, if we’d stayed together for longer, I’d have been dating a person who has the ability to turn against someone that quickly and to use their insecurities against them heartlessly, terrifies me. If I’d stuck it out like I’d originally planned, things could be so much worse.

Overall, I’m pretty happy. Yeah, it’s messy but that’s just how life works. And okay, it’s awkward, but so am I so I can’t say much. Time is one of the best healers and even if that doesn’t work, as it is right now isn’t too bad. This whole thing has made me realize that sometimes things don’t work out….and that’s okay. I don’t need to blame myself, analyze every detail obsessively and stress out to the point I become ill. Instead I’ve learnt to just focus on the positives and notice all the good things that are happening in my life, even if they are mixed in with a couple things that aren’t so good.

Wow, this post was long, thank you for reading this far! Feel free to leave any stories you have in the comments, I love to hear from you just as much as I love to post!!

{___} My LifeOnline {13/11/16}

200 Followers Reactions!

Okay, what? I’ve come back from this giant almost month long disappearance during which I thought you would all have abandoned me and see that I’m almost at 200 followers….what? I’m actually in shock – this is so surreal. Especially since I had convinced myself that I would return and have like 1 follower, not 193!

194….this is cra-Zy!

*A little while later*

I’m an awful person….I had so much to do that I kind of put this blog to the side and once again haven’t posted for ages….I just noticed I has a missed notification, a very important missed notification…..THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH FOR 200+ FOLLOWERS,

Thank you from the bottom of my heart, thank you for sticking with me throughout my absence, for being the best most loyal and lovely people in the world. I would love to promise regular posts but as my life is so busy that may not be possible. With exams and studying I find it hard to write posts when I know I have homework next to me to do. 
And then there’s the whole issue with time…my entire social life has completely and utterly changed since September. I now have a completely different and much larger group of friends and among them, a group of people I’m extremely close to and talk to practically 24/7. I’ve suddenly found myself going from being the awkward person with a select group of best friends and many acquaintances to being a sociable girl with many amazing people surrounding me. 
For this I’m grateful but of course it means I have less time to dedicate to my blog….I’m trying but sometimes other things have to take up my time, no matter how much I love my blog and you guys.

What I’m trying to say is that posts may not be regular but only because I only want to present the best quality to you, no rushed awful posts because that’s not what you came to read! However, prepare for many upcoming posts that I know will go up! 
How do I know? Well, I’ve already written a load that just need a little more then they’re done! They may not have cover pictures though….I haven’t had time to make any of those haha 
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{200} My LifeOnline {12/11/16}